I Love You Grandma, May You Rest in Peace.

Today is the final day of my Grandmother's funeral, we have buried her with my grandfather and she finally rest in peace with him. We were not asked to wear the traditional attire as my mother was given away, so we were consider illegitimate. Due to respect, we still were there to pay our last respect throughout the 3 days.

Our last prayer this morning was an emotional one, i told myself not to cry but my tears just flow and i couldn't help it. It is a tradtion that we were not allowed to look when the coffin is moved, even at the cemetery when the people move her coffin to the burial ground and laying the coffin in, we were not allowed to see unless the coffin is idle.

I remember i did ask my grandfather (from my father's side) why can't we look? I was told that we are not allowed to look because we don't want to hold her spirit back. If we look back, means that we don't want her spirit to leave and she can't move on to afterlife. That is how the tradition derived.

I knew my Grandmother was with us when they moved her coffin out of the house. I smell something from our childhood, the smell that reminds me of grandma. Me and my sister Melodee was like looking at each other, we are saying like, 'it's Grandma'. The smell brings back memories that we spend time with my Grandma, that very smell reminds us of her. It was the smell of loveletter. Our memories with her was sitting down around the hot charcoal and making loveletters for Chinese New Year. We usually gather, everyone will be there, making loveletters.

Grandma, you will always be in our hearts and never forgotten. Everytime i smell of loveletters, it reminds me of you. Love you Grandma and may you rest in peace.

My Mother's Day Celebration

On Mother's Day, my entire family went out for dinner. My Mom really wanted to eat Japanese food, but the queue was so long at Jusco Bukit Tinggi (plus my dad has not much patience and after like waiting for 15 mins he got very angry, can hear it from his tone of voice and facial expression) We quickly change restaurant and ended up in Windmill where there was no queue.

We got a place immediately and ordered the Mother's Day Special. It's a full course meal, a shrimp cocktail and Crab and Sharkfins soup for appetizer, 3 choices of main course - grilled salmon, whole spring chicken with mushroom sauce and Beef and lamb with barbeque sauce, Ice cream and fruit cake for dessert and a chococino for drink. Not too bad eh, only RM 59.90 per course and it comes with a free gift. So, we ordered all 3 meals and share among the 5 of us.

Mom, patiently waiting for the food to be served

Shrimp and Honeydew Cocktail

Mom enjoying her Crab and Sharksfin Soup

Beef and Lamb with Barbeque Sauce

Mom, getting ready to eat

Whole Spring Chicken with Mushroom Sauce

Grilled Salmon with Lemon

Sis giving mom her kiss on Mother's day. Mom was so happy that she claimed that this is her best Mother's day ever to date!

Me and Mom - We really look alike!

Mom, sis and me!

Mom, HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY. We LOVE you!!! I'm really glad that you enjoyed your day with us and you clearly express it to us. Next time will bring you for Japanese food yea! Love ya!

Is that a Simple Life??

OK, everyone says "Life Is Simple"! Life is actually simple but people makes life complicated. Is life really that simple? I personally don't think that it is that simple. My life is definitely not simple. It is definitely not that complicated either. But how do you define simple?

I'm not here to talk about my crappy life. I feel certain things in your life, you have to keep it private. Share things about you, but to a certain extend. I don't want just about each and every person i know or i don't know know each and every bit of me. That would be scary.

I go online quite frequent. Chat with all sort of people, share experiences, debate with certain chatters about any topic that comes in mind. But there is this one person that i chat with really makes me angry and disappointed with people out there. This is how the conversation goes:

I was asking him how is he going to spend his Christmas...

Lovemaker (02:07 PM) :
as usual...hang out in cafe..
Lovemaker (02:08 PM) :
nothing much special
Melissa (02:11 PM) :
i see..with gf?
Lovemaker (02:11 PM) :
yeah.....u ler?
Lovemaker (02:13 PM) :
do u have many bf?
Melissa (02:13 PM) :
nope..i need only 1
Lovemaker (02:13 PM) :
yeah....
Melissa (02:13 PM) :
i'm sure you have many
Lovemaker (02:14 PM) :
gf can hv many but serious one just one will enough i think
Melissa (02:15 PM) :
well..i am talking abt serious one la
Lovemaker (02:18 PM) :
yeah...so do u hv close relation with ur serious bf

(what kind of guy asked questions like this? But just 'layan' him la, since i have nothing to do!)

Melissa (02:18 PM) :
i don't have one yet
Lovemaker (02:18 PM) :
so...
Lovemaker (02:18 PM) :
u look for one ?

(what do you mean 'look' for one? There is no such thing to look for a bf or gf! You think it is so easy to 'look' for one..like you go somewhere and 'look' for a guy or a girl and then..there..that is the guy/girl that i am looking for! BULLSHIT!)

Melissa (02:19 PM) :
i don't look
Melissa (02:19 PM) :
just letting it come naturally
Lovemaker (02:19 PM) :
i see
Melissa (02:19 PM) :
what abt you?
Lovemaker (02:20 PM) :
just see can meet any one lor
Melissa (02:21 PM) :
haha
Lovemaker (02:22 PM) :
yeah...can be a friend also can..can be a lover also good

(a guy can be so fickle minded! everything is so easy for them. You Girl ah..I am a guy..eh..want to be friends or lovers..you pick la..friend also can lover also can..up to you. My God! You think like buying vegetables meh..if can't get this vege then get another vege!)

Melissa (02:22 PM) :
haha..very simple ah
Lovemaker (02:23 PM) :
simple is nice...life should not so complicated
Melissa (02:23 PM) :
well..it is complicated
Melissa (02:23 PM) :
and it doesn't seem simple
Lovemaker (02:25 PM) :
it's human being make it complicated...
Lovemaker (02:25 PM) :
the things itself is very simple
Melissa (02:25 PM) :
well..if life is simple..then it must be boring
Lovemaker (02:26 PM) :
well...it;s depend how u deal with the life...simple can be exciting too
Melissa (02:26 PM) :
haha
Melissa (02:26 PM) :
true

(Initially i thought he's mind was just simple, so i was waiting to hear what he have to say about life la. Since it is so simple to him. But to what he have to say, i just flipped!)

Lovemaker (02:28 PM) :
as long as u feel the things u do its good n nice then just do it...that is simple too

(Yea right! without thinking of the consequences? That is what people do and later live on to regret it. I agree to a certain extend we have to just do it and give it a try, also have to see in what kind of situation la.)

Melissa (02:28 PM) :
:-)
Lovemaker (02:30 PM) :
remember..go where u want to go...eat what u want to eat...do wat u want to do..that is simple

(Well, he is trying to put in some 'words of wisdom' and give me a few tips in life la..since i am so blur.
Go where you want to go!
To go somewhere, it is not that simple. If he is talking about holiday,
1st, we need money, to make money, we need to work -not that simple.
2nd, If we are working- we need to apply for leave leh! that doesn't mean your Boss will approve your leave! - not so simple to me!
3rd, If you are single, then can just go la, what if you have a family-have to think about your wife/husband and kids le? - not so simple le
4th, Think about Hotel leh, unless you want to sleep at the roadside or under the bridge..

What i am trying to say is..everything you do you have to plan. You can't just leave when you feel like leaving. Same goes for a relationship!

Eat what you want to eat?

I don't know how this statement applies to life being simple

Lastly, Do what you want to do!

I mean come on! You can't do whatever you want to do! Whatever you do will affect people around you. )

Melissa (02:30 PM) :
'do what you want to do' can be anything
Melissa (02:31 PM) :
means have an affair
Melissa (02:31 PM) :
cheat on your gf
Melissa (02:31 PM) :
or your wife
Melissa (02:31 PM) :
can be doing what you want to do
Lovemaker (02:31 PM) :
well...well..
Melissa (02:31 PM) :
still have to consider after people around
Melissa (02:31 PM) :
that is not living it simple :-)
Lovemaker (02:33 PM) :
tot u loh..if u still scare of ppl talking ..scare of ppl say abt u...scare of this n scare of that..then life will not be simple anymore...life should be fun to live in....we r just temperary living in the world...

(huh??!! What the fuck! )

Melissa (02:35 PM) :
hmm..means if you are married..and if you feel like it..you will do it and lead your so called - normal life and don't care whatever your wife says or feel..so..is that what you called a simple life?
Melissa (02:36 PM) :
well..you may think you live a simple life...your wife might not think her life is simple that she have to deal with people like you.
Lovemaker (02:37 PM) :
hahahahaha...if anything want to happen...no matter how we prevent ..it should happen

(huh??? Is that a human that i am chatting with??? No feelings, no emotions, just words)

Melissa (02:37 PM) :
wow..no wonder you don't have a gf

(Me trying to be sarcastic!)

Lovemaker (02:37 PM) :
we only can take it n accept it...

(Fuck!!)

Melissa (02:37 PM) :
no..not we...
Melissa (02:37 PM) :
and you expect your wife to sit quietly and take it
Melissa (02:38 PM) :
that is not fair..and that is not what you called 'simple life'
Melissa (02:38 PM) :
that is selfish and ignorant
Lovemaker (02:38 PM) :
if my gf or wife hv an affair...ofcourse affair is hide behind...so..if she like n feel that i cant give her any happiness..than how i please also no use..

(I am talking about you and you give me instances if your wife were to have an affair?)

Melissa (02:39 PM) :
i'm not talking about your wife
Melissa (02:39 PM) :
i'm talking you
Lovemaker (02:39 PM) :
:-P
Melissa (02:39 PM) :
if you can think of issue like this?? then why get married with her if you think you won't be happy?
Lovemaker (02:40 PM) :
well..same thing to me..
Melissa (02:41 PM) :
no.it's not the same...you have the intention to cheat
Melissa (02:41 PM) :
and still think it is ok to do so
Lovemaker (02:41 PM) :
if i hv an affair...n my wife will not forgive n will divoce to me..n this is the punishment to me n i will take it...that is my fault
Melissa (02:43 PM) :
my point is..why have an affair when you already know that your wife will definitely will not forgive you and will divorce you
Melissa (02:43 PM) :
this is not call your punishment

(His punishment??? What punishment you are talking about? you had an affair, who the hell would forgive you? Of course it is your fault! Learn how to 'spark' your relationship again la! Read kennysia.com and learn a thing or two. Your life is definitely simple, by having a divorce is your easy way out! Scumbag!! )

Lovemaker (02:43 PM) :
sometime things is beyond our control...

(What the Fuck!!! You can't control your dick is it?? Go fucking around is it???)

Melissa (02:44 PM) :
it is punishing her because she will be hurt and traumatize her whole life
Melissa (02:44 PM) :
ohh...come on..what you mean things is beyond your control?
Lovemaker (02:44 PM) :
marriage is such a like gambling

(You will get another F word from me..i am controlling myself..but not my finger *showing my middle finger*)

Melissa (02:45 PM) :
you are telling me that you are weak and you could not control infidelity?
Lovemaker (02:46 PM) :
how to say...man r almost the same...maybe i m wrong...

(Girls, there are no more good guys around anymore. They are all dead. Even this guy admits it. How to trust guys anymore leh? Furthermore hearing this from a guy!)

Melissa (02:47 PM) :
wow..you are saying you are like that?
Lovemaker (02:48 PM) :
well...well.. i admit..i like it..i like the fun...
Melissa (02:49 PM) :
how old are you already?
Lovemaker (02:50 PM) :
mid 30
Melissa (02:52 PM) :
35?
Lovemaker (02:52 PM) :
going to 36
Melissa (02:53 PM) :
ok..good for you

(That expains why he is still single in his late 30's. I'm not saying all guys in their 30's that is still single have the same thinking with him..but i can see that there's a problem with this guy. That is why he is still single. At 36 and you still thinking of having fun. What has this world had turned into?)

Lovemaker (02:54 PM) :
do u have sex experience?

(Damn you..want to talk about sex somemore..pervert! Can't you see that i am pissed off and you still want to try your luck at me..Go fly kite la!)

Melissa (02:55 PM) :
i am not going through with this conversation
Lovemaker (02:55 PM) :
ok..sure

This is how i ended my conversation this this chatter. I mean, how can a person have thinking like this? If he is really a person that i talked face to face to. I would have definitely killed him with my bare hands. Would you want to be with a person like this?

All i can say is..i wish him the best of luck.. And i wish that he can lead a lonely, miserable, pathetic, meaningless SIMPLE LIFE !!! *showing middle finger*

The Spears - Are they good news or bad news?

Recently, i have read a few articles about Britney spear's baby sister Jamie Lynn Spears is PREGNANT! I mean, she is only 16 years old. Her parents are OK with it! What kind of message is she sending to the kids that idolize her? Kids watch her show 'Zoey 101' aired on Nickelodeon. I thought she would be different than her sister!

At least Britney was 24 and married before she got pregnant. Well, that doesn't mean she made the right choice either. Married a guy who already has a girlfriend that has bear him 2 children and carrying in her belly with another one. He does not even plan to marry her long time girlfriend and also mother of his 2 kids-Shar Jackson.

I mean, I don't understand why Britney would get involve with a guy that is so irresponsible. No one approved when they got together, as Britney being a rebel, she went against everyone. It's like what we would do when we were teenagers, the more our parents refrain us from doing anything the more we want to do it to show that we are more superior than them. That's Britney! Although she was in her twenties, (as you know Hollywood celebrities will never lead a normal life) her mentality is still of a teenage girl.

When she was going with Justin, she was young and famous and in love. Only after her breakup with Justin made her go cuckoo a little. OK, not a little but a lot. After that she has been focusing on her career and going on for tours, made her feel more lonely. Then she met Kevin Federline at a bar and they just hit it off..she is so over protective over Kevin saying that he's the one, he is nice and understanding and whatever you would say when you think that you are so in love.

Which guy won't fall in love with Britney? She is super rich man! He have already more than one motive to be with her.

i) He ask for anything in the world and she will get it for him
ii) He gets to travel the world with her expenses (on her tour around the world)
iii) Get her pregnant and he will always be the father of her kids
iv) A lifetime of alimony from her as she is earning more then he is (when divorce) v) Instant Fame!! who doesn't want that?

Why i think Britney made the wrong choice by choosing Kevin to be her husband?

i) He doesn't even earn enough to buy her a meal.
ii) He likes to party a lot (that doesn't sound like a good husband material)
iii) She has to take car of him instead of the other way round
iv) Irresponsible as a boyfriend and as a father (referring to Shar Jackson)
v) He making used of her popularity to get record deals and movie roles
vi) Leave his girlfriend who is still pregnant with his 3rd child for Britney (come on Brit, with his actions i'm sure a blind person can see what kind of person he is!)
vii) Britney have to buy her own proposal ring to ask him to propose to her?

I guess it is enough reason to think that Kevin is not good news to Britney, she have to merely spend her fortune to maintain his sudden extravagant lifestyle. No wonder Britney goes nuts after her divorce with Kevin!!!

I'm surprise that Jamie-Lynn is following the footsteps of her sister that will lead to disaster. I'm sure she knows best what really happen to her sister. Yon know- learn from her mistake, not to follow her footsteps, but i guess i was wrong. I'm also surprise that the media are quite lenient on her. Not as bad as it hit Britney. The media seem quite supportive of her preggers public announcement.

Recent news, i've heard Jamie-Lynn had already broken off with her boyfriend CaseyAldridge. Sigh!! It is as good as it gets. then back again and broke up again....same old thing la you hear from Hollywood. Imagine us girls being pregnant and going all through it alone. It must be devastating.

We can't compare our lives with them because they live under the microscope all their life with paparazzi on the look out of everything they do and further exaggerate the issue when they make a mistake. If we make a mistake, we just apologize to our parents and ask for forgiveness and straight on with our lives. For them, it's a stress all the time, people misquote you, making a big issue for everything you do or say, force them to make a public apology if they want to continue to be a role model or celebrity or surviving in the entertainment world. We always wish that we could be rich and famous and be known. But i don't think this is the life i want to lead.


I love my normal fame-less simple life :)

Happily Ever After ??!!??!!

I guess the latest topic that everyone is talking are about marriage. Even my friends are blogging about this topic (refer to Canna). Maybe is because friends around my age are at a marriageable age, most of them are in the midst of planning to get prepared for the Year 2009.

There's one particular close friend of mine just got married in early September 2007. He has always been very good around girls and i know most of his more than a handful of partners. Most of them can't get along with me and another friend of mine because both of us are girls and it seems that a guy and a girl can't be 'just friends'. Girls around him are always insecure and objected him from meeting us, not even a simple lunch. The worst part is, he always try to please them until a day that he explode. Is this really 'LOVE' that everyone is talking about?

The big question is 'WHY DO YOU THINK PEOPLE GET MARRIED'? I have friends that are married already. Most of them don't practice safe sex and accidentally got pregnant, which have ruin their life and have no options but stop furthering studies and be a housewife. I'm not saying that being a housewife is bad, it's that..you are only 21 years old. There are so many things ahead of you to look forward to, to explore, to learn and to experience.

Some people get married just for the sake of wanting to get married. Some because other friends are getting married, so they don't want to lose out and plan for a marriage, some wanted it for their 21st birthday present. Is it because of LOVE the main reason for marriage? i don't think so! It's like a Rat Race out there, people comparing on the total guest they have invited, location of their wedding dinner, wedding pictures, wedding bands, the date that they are getting married, the reception, the car escort, even their husband are being compared. It's never-ending.

I feel is more like a fashion trend, marriage is no longer taken seriously. Wedding bands are like 'Accessories' to show off to friends. It does not symbolizes anything significant to anyone anymore. Is LOVE the main reason for marriage? Or is it just lust and desire? A Fashion Trend? Is it the personality of the partner the main factor? What about compatibility? I wonder myself. LOVE is so overrated, i guess there won't be any specific answer to my questions.

Marriage is no longer about 'I-want-to-grow-old-with-you' or 'i-want-to-have-beautiful-kids-with-you'. It's like what you see in Hollywood, people get married and divorce so frequently and easily. I guess normal people like us won't be handle so many marriages that ends with 'irreconcilable differences'. That is the most common statement or i can say 'reasons' that the Hollywood Artistes use to file for any divorce.

Why are the divorce rates are getting higher by the days? The more civilized we become, the more ignorant we become. What if it involves kids? What will happen to them? Sigh! People can be so selfish nowadays. Who is it to blame? The television (Haha)!' Always blame the westerner for bad influences. Our upbringing? Or people just don't really care anymore? If people don't take marriage seriously, the why in the first place people get married anyway? I just don't understand people nowadays.

It is not a 'Game' or something that you can play around with. People always say that marriage is about 2 person. Lovers always say that it is about 'You and Me', unfortunately, it is not only about 2 person but it is more than that. When you are married, not only you are married to the person that you love but you are also 'married' into his/her family. Decisions made, are no longer for 2 person. It involves each and every member of the family around you. I may be wrong, but this is what i think after listening and seeing some problems that people face.

I was watching this movie 'Shall we Dance' i don't know about how many thousand time. There's this particular dialog and caught my attention. As i say ah..most of my friends are getting married, so i just want to share the excerpt with everyone that is married or getting married. I feel it is quite true what 'Susan Sarandon' had said in this scene. She had hired a private investigator to check on her husband (Richard Gere) who she suspects was having an affair. But later found out that he was actually out taking dancing lessons. The private investigator told that he is going for a dancing competition and she said she want to be there to witness it. The private investigator was shocked, and he asked why are you doing this?

She answered:

"Why is it do you think people get married? Because we need a witness to our lives. There's a billion people on the planet, what does anyone life really mean? But in a marriage, you are promising to care about everything. The GOOD things, the BAD things, the MUNDANE things, ALL OF IT, EVERYTIME, EVERYDAY. You are saying, your life will not go unnoticed, because i will notice it. Your life will not go unwitnessed, because i will be your witness."

I really like what she said, it gives me a different perspective of marriage. I guess her statement said it all. The most important thing is that you want your life partner to know each and everything about you, what you do, your dreams and share your life experiences.